With This Kiss
I liked working in the kitchen of the nursing home knowing that the
money was starting to flow again. An offer came along to earn extra cash, so I
started cleaning the carpets with Mike twice a week. He walked into the kitchen
regularly to say hello, making sure I had noticed him each time. An underlying
motive from his visits that made him unaware of what he was implying. I
imagined he was trying to connect with me on some level but for what purpose; I
did not know. I didn’t see us be friends, because his persona, was etched
heterosexual. He was so straight, in fact, that he sometimes made me feel
uncomfortable. However, there was something that I liked.
He invited me over to his place to hang out one day. I was reluctant at
first, figuring we would spend most of the time watching football or sport
events on television. However, we didn't do much of anything, except play board
games and watch reruns on TV. It was nice getting to know him on that level,
but like everything else; it was just a matter of time before I figured out
what underlying motive was transpiring. I was starting to think that I had
found myself another curious foe for experimentation.
Leaning on the couch next to one another and being sprawled on the bed
playing board games, gave way to several other games that I was already
accustomed to. It was the occasional graze of the leg while reaching for the
dice that sent chills through me. At times, it was the physical touch of the
arm congratulating a nice roll, made my body weak. Mike was afraid of
confrontation, so he didn't want to encourage anything on the slight chance
that I would not approve of his advances. Not at any given time, did I offer
information to him. He never knew the truth about me. And besides, I wasn't
obvious in my nature. It was more of the fact that he was frightened of
becoming the fool showing his curiosities to an unknown predator. It was a
delicate situation to become wrapped up in; afraid of the rejection and
understanding the consequences in case efforts did not go as planned. I had to
remember what it was like to conceal every impulse with so much fear behind you
that it rips you apart. Although I was still living with fear myself, I had
more of an understanding of what he was going through. I will admit that my
personality is stubborn, and usually I don’t bow down to the hunt. I liked to
be the hunted. This time I knew, however, I had to make the first move.
The first night of cleaning the dining room proved to be a bit of a
challenge. I had to transport enormous machines out of the van into the dining
room which was physical work. I didn't enjoy it, and when I thought, it
couldn't get any worse pushing the cleaner back and forth for two hours; we had
to repeat the whole process again in order to suck up the dirt. The sweat was
streaming down my forehead as I cursed with every tug. On occasion, Mike had glanced
over towards me with a grin. He was checking to see, how I was holding up. With
all my emotions in tack, I stared back with a blank expression.
The residents were either asleep in their rooms or were talking to a
skeleton crew of nurses. We met in the middle of the room and finished the job
with only a small walkway to exit the dining room. He used the machine to go
over our tracks as we walked across the carpet to the concrete hallway. It was
time to take a break. Amen.
We turned off the machines and made our way down towards the employee's
change lounge, one floor below. Upon entering, Mike ripped off his shirt and
splashed water onto his face and then on his exposed chest. With the sweat
streaming off our bodies and me having a free show, I was starting to boil even
more. He stood in the middle of the room with a mixture of water droplets and
sweat cascading through the trail of masculine hairs of his midsection while
elevating the erotic tension further, he slowly unbuttoned his jeans. I
couldn't help but watch as something grew rapidly within and was aching to be
released from its tight enclosure. He unzipped his fly while his other hand started
to caress his smooth stomach. I noticed him eyeing the bulge underneath my own
denim, showing off the excitement. He stood watching as I pushed down and
stroked the outside of my jeans trying to give it a bit of release. He stepped
towards me and cupped his palm while leaning in order to kiss me. He squeezed
as his warm lips of salt embraced mine. A soft moan echoed throughout the
lounge that seemed to flow through the entire hallway. At that moment, when the
world fell silent, the door into the lounge swung open. A nurse poked her head
in and was horrified.
"Sorry. I didn't think anyone was down here." It was all she
could muster, as she let the door close behind her and ran upstairs.
Everything changed its proportion, and we scrambled to put ourselves back
together. With fear surging within, we thought that we would be fired or thrown
in jail for indecent public exposure.
I thought to myself,
"This scenario was not going to go over well."
When we scurried upstairs, we heard tire squeals outside the front
entrance. His mother came barging through the front door and was headed
straight for us. I don't know about Mike, but I pretty much shit myself, right
there. She escorted us into the dining room and told us to put the equipment
away. We had both concentrated, on the task at hand. We figured it was going to
be our last time together. We stole eye contact of comfort from one another
while the last bit of machinery was put away. The only hope that I had was that
the police would be kind and put us in the same jail cell together.
As it turned out, his mother was only pissed off because Mike knew
better than to leave the floor without letting the night crew know that he was
still in the building. The nurse realized after the fact that it was Mike, and
so she called her boss rather than the police. That had been the best relief
that I've ever had that wasn't sexual.
When we arrived at his place, I called my mom to let her know that I
was staying overnight because I had to work early the next morning. I was actually
telling the truth. I just neglected to tell her any more details.
That night, we kept looking at one another. We both accepted the fact
that eventually something was going to happen. He encouraged me to sleep in his
bed, as regular mates do when hanging out together. It was with a whisper of
passion in his voice that threw me. To the world, Mike was straight, but when
he was with me, his personality and insights changed. Few men wanting to
experience gay sex would not want to be introduced to erotic passion. Most
likely, it would be one-sided and hard-core. Mike was different. I think he
knew it too.
He took my hand and escorted me towards the bed. In unison, we
discarded all clothing, not taking our eyes off one another. When we were
nestled under the covers we laid on our backs looking up at the ceiling;
silently questioning what was going to happen next. His leg became entwined
with mine while his hand was resting on my thigh. There were no words
exchanged. It was nice to be close, feeling content without the known outcome
of an orgasm. We lay there until dreams took us even closer together.
When morning rose, Mike's body was spooned against my mine with his arm
suspended over my waist. I didn't stir; fearful I would disturb the moment. I
wanted it to last as long as possible. I clutched his hand and wrapped it
tighter. Together we laid for what
seemed to be hours in time. When he woke, he removed his arm from my waist-side
and went into the shower. He was a beautiful vision gliding naked across the floor,
as I watched. I continued to stay in bed as my own erotic behaviour would not
diminish. The mere thought of him in the shower was arousing me even further.
When he walked out of the bathroom with only a towel around his waist, he
handed me one, as if to tell me to get into the shower. I did as instructed and stood up from the bed
wrapping the towel around my waist. My manhood was stretching the cotton
outward. Mike noticed and gave me a
quick smile.
Weeks had gone by, and my mind would not stay focused on anything
except him. He finally called. While contemplating the inevitable, he in turn
mentioned that he missed me and wanted to hang out again. I was wondering if
the term, hang out, had a different meaning.
We met Friday night at his place. I guessed it could go either two
ways; up in flames and straight to hell or soft and sweet as candy.
He met me at the doorway as I approached.
"Let's take a walk." He said, gesturing me off the pathway
towards the street.
It was close to nine o'clock, and the sun was tired of beating down.
Dusk would come soon. The breeze held just enough warmth in the air to make the
night intoxicating while weak stars tried to be seen overhead.
We stopped at a park bench, quite a distance from home. It was secluded
away from traffic lights, roads and houses and more importantly people. There
was not a soul around except for the occasional firefly soaring by. The moment
finally came when we started to talk.
"So, what's been on your mind the past week?" I asked,
soothing the way. I figured I would start the conversation, knowing it was
going to be a touchy subject. His first reply wasn't what I had expected.
"I know we have to talk about the other night... I've had so many
things I wanted to say, but now I can’t think of one. I do know, that I’ve always
wanted to try things that I would have never thought of doing before I had met
you. That one time at work was strange. I know I initiated it, but I couldn't
control myself. Everything I did was right at the time." Mike’s head was
downwards, as if embarrassed to confess his sins. I looked directly at him and
moved his chin upward.
“When I slept over the other night, it was a great feeling having you
beside me. It was more than just mates, wasn't it? I know you felt the
same." I said as I may have overstepped my boundaries. At least, I was
honest.
He looked at me with a confused stare and liquid eyes. I did everything
in my power to be sympathetic toward him. I think the biggest roadblock was
that he was fighting his feelings that were getting in the way of the sex. It
was supposed to be only about the sex. I thought the powers of two evils were
worse than one, so I let dogs lie. We continued with idle conversations of the
weeks past and started our journey homeward. It took every bit of restraint not
to grab hold of his hand. I figured it would be too much for him, so I let
everything go back as it was until he was ready.
"I know things happen for a reason... I just need to know the
reasons." Mike announced.
"I'm willing to encourage that fact, patiently." I replied.
We left that night alone, until dusk fell once again.
He called that day with an excited tone to his voice, inviting me again.
His parents were going to be out as they had a business trip to Ottawa to
attend to. The fact that they were not going to be back until morning made me
excited at the endless possibilities of what could happen. Was he ready to
acknowledge his erotic emotions or was he going to climax on me?
On my way over I had to stop at the corner store. There was no reason
why I had to go in, except that my nerves were on the edge, and I needed a
distraction. I bought a pack of gum and two cupcakes. My mind was swimming with
scenes of what the night may offer a touch of romance, sexual exploration, pain
sweat or tears.
I forced myself to stay on the positive side as I had faith. Any
outcome that comes to pass would be wonderful because no matter how I dreamed,
or acted; It was all coming out of the closet again. After re-evaluating
myself, I had come to realize that this wasn't about having sex. This time it
was about my feelings surfacing in its raw form; I was beginning to fall in
love with him.
Great, something else to come to terms with. I thought to myself.
When I arrived at his place, the two of us
started our descent into the basement. Most of the evening
played on as usual; sitting on the couch listening to music or watching
television.
Eventually, when we sat closer to one another on the couch, as his arm
slid from the back of my head grazing my neck. The warmth of his body next to
mine was absolute. He was ready. My shoulder leaned into him as I placed my
hand gently upon his leg, rubbing with graceful movements.
"Lay down with your legs across." He initiated, showing me
the motion of his arm. Immediately, I obeyed and moved my body as I twisted
flat on my back, with my head nestled on his lap. That moment only lasted a
short while, and in all its comfort, he finally spoke.
"Why don't you come up here?" He suggested as he tugged on my
arm and motioned me up slowly.
He pulled my face closer to his, and with a nod of consent, his tongue
was placed deep inside my mouth, and the palm of his hand was putting pressure
on my already grown manhood through my jeans. Mike questioned himself, at the
possibility of stopping. He never did.
Feeling the wave of mixed emotions that projected through him, he submitted to
his own reality. He pushed me back down onto the couch and placed his body on
mine. With grinding hips, I felt every inch of him with no insecurities. I took
the next step and grabbed underneath to undo his zipper that was holding his
wonder and pulled it out. As eager as I was, I wanted the embrace it, with my
mouth. Mike had the same eagerness, so he encouraged me off the sofa and into
the bedroom. In a flash, we staggered with half undone clothes.
We stood at the edge of the bed undressing fully and slid beneath the
covers. We both became the explored and the explorer in our own eroticism for
hours.
When his body collapsed from exhaustion, he rolled off my own and put
his arm around my waist. He didn't realize the glaze of Cum that was spewed
upon my stomach. As we lay there breathing
heavy, he swirled his finger through the glaze on my chest, as if stirring a
love potion.
The time caressed by, as the hours of exploration seemed to shoot by in
minutes. Our breathing slowed to a comfortable state, and no words to speak of.
We stayed spellbound caressing one another until we drifted off into a wondrous
sleep.
When the morning rose through the window, Mike turned and smiled. For
the first time, he felt all the nervousness gone. He tossed the blankets from
my naked body and tugged gently on my arm. It was a sign for me to join him in
the shower. The gesture was of pure romance, as if from a movie. With water
flowing over our bodies, and the gentleness of warm lather soothing our skin, I
couldn't tell if the water or tears were falling from his cheeks.
"Is anything wrong?" I asked, moving him away from the
spraying water.
I grabbed his hand in mine, as my heart sank.
"I'm okay. I guess I've been hiding for so long, that everything
has finally caught up with me." He released.
"I mean..." He stopped to gather his thoughts, and I let him
take his time.
"I'm happy...I've never felt so incredibly free, before I met you.
At first, it was about the sex. I was curious and took it as a lesson. It
doesn't mean your gay wanting to try something new. It's not about that. It's
about us and the connection I have made with you, emotionally.
I pulled him into my arms.
"I accept the fact that I am gay, and you know what? It's okay,
because, deep down, I’ve discovered that being in love is what freedom is
about. You are the one thing that has made me realize this. I can be myself
when I’m around you”
Mike released everything from his soul as he continued,
”I can finally admit that I have fallen in love, as my heart is with
you. I hope you feel the same towards me?”
With an embrace, I kissed him with all the freedom he deserves.
“Yes, I do.”
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